well what happen 2day!

well some happen 2day im so happy like is a different kind of day that i have!i think that is my dad tell me not to be sad any more he does not want to see me like that!I really cant stand it this few day i really think of him much often but i wanted to dream about him but i cant dream.I remember seems when im small i love me until 18 years old.When i going sit for my SPM test paper on that time it seem make me sad by that time im brain was empty!I still remember y last time i dont treat him good at all?Until now want to treat him good is too late!it will never happen to me again !How ever im always in the hospital with him.By then i really stand it.Onces im thinking of him i felt sad and i feel i want to cry at all time!well last time i remember some guys scolded memy daddy i the one to help me not my friend by then if i got problem i want to find him for sure no one will help me?well some time i think where is he is he around me now?Sometime i feel to talk to him!By then i just talk out like that for me he will hear me all the time( i know you all say im stupid)it every hard to 4get a person even more he is my closes relative.Some time i hear some old song it remember how he sing for me to hear when im small !The first song my daddy teach me a song that is(SMOKE GETS IN YOUR EYES BY THE PLATTERS)for sure some of you all did not hear it !even thought i did not talk to him at the last moment with him !By then im in my cousin house doing nothing!Why am i not in the hospital with him?well i does not get it i even did not talk to him at all seem he is in the hospital!Why all those thing happen to me=(every sad it may not 4get it 4 ever!!!!!)